Not My Cup of Drink...

If this is an Elixir of Life...

...I would certainly not drink it, for I would only come across another set of selfish people.

Count 'less'...

Those who don't know me, will see and know only one name from the stones. But I know few names that are on there. Many that I am not aware of...will be a surprise as they flip in the journey.

I seriously don't remember few characters...after all these years. Probably applies to many out there.

And for sure I could be in many forgotten list too :)

Fair Bit(e) of Share...

Life gives everyone their fair bit/ bite of share...

Of course there are/ could be many disappointments in each of the journeys. But I strongly believe that we get what we are supposed to. I know what I deserve & you know what you deserve. Everything else does not matter.

So have fun & do what you love to do...as long as it does not hurt anyone. I don't believe in false hopes & fake chocolate words. But what I do wish is 'May this new year bring us anything/ everything that each of us deserve'...

I also have to agree that unfortunately for many of us - we get the share when we don't want or we don't get when we want...that's the way it would be. And none of us can have a control on that.

So keep munching as long as you have your share...Rock on!

Controlled Care...

Control...that is the only invisible weapon that we desire to have on everything.

Most often it goes out of our limits...but till then everyone is a king/ queen in their own backyard.

Look at the way she is controlling her horse. It's a fabulous sight to see them control it, especially when the horses get excited/afraid...infact the race horses are accompanied by a well trained horse by their side before the race, to keep their head cool. She is riding on one such horse. It requires tremendous strength and control to ride a beast...most importantly, an understanding of the beast.

Wish I could let somethings go out of my control (Rang De Basanti style). There has got to be someone for me (for everyone else too), for I can be controlled by care and not a careless attitude.

Am I a beast too...!

On a frustrated hunger note: Me & my friend were shopping around the whole day today and were quite eager to end our day with 'Goat Biriyani', the best one. We got delayed due to a cashier, who was waiting for some information on a product price. So we missed our bus and had to wait to take the next one. After sometime we reached our destination, crossing another good restaurant on the way, just to hear that no orders would be taken. So we returned back to the one we saw earlier, only to be told by them that they are also closed. 10PM under the beautiful moon, sitting opposite to the same restaurant with hunger is ok. But to stare at the glowing lights & the running letters on the bill board that says "You can eat all for $9.99. Chicken Kebab, Mutton biriyani, Hot Naan, Tandoori chicken, Samosa, Vegetable pulao, Goat Biriyani, Aloo pakoda..." is deeply, seriously frustrating [Try it].

What not and you would not want to know what words were running in my mind...letters were still running outside the closed shutters of the restaurant, as we boarded our bus.

I almost lost my control...

Run For It...

Race is on...and everyone has to run - Win or Lose.

To go to a race has been a desire for many years. When my friend Chitanya invited me to the race I can only accept it as last time could not join him. But then this week has been the worst for me and I required such a break. Infact I had thought of posting a self-portrait, which I had taken a week back. But then I did not want to bore everyone with my pictures.

This picture is one more of those attempts to capture those real moments. It was good to go out on a bright & sunny day and win few dollars (never mind about the loss).

I could read their eyes...some more snaps to come: the horse which won for me, close-ups, Stroll, etc., I admire these beasts for their strength, stamina and determination.

Intriguing Interrogatives ?

What you read is not just for me, it would rather be a small sub-class of the bigger lot...of my co-existing homosapiens. So...

Sometimes I think why can't...

I keep walking till my thoughts are exhausted?
I laugh so much that I don't have to laugh again?
I live my life full so that I don't have to be born again?
I fly so that the birds envy me?
I write so much that I hate writing?
I photograph so much that I completely loose interest in it?
I listen to the music for so long that I hate any sound after?
I work so hard that I don't have to do it again forever?
I be happy so much that anything would hesitate to disturb me?

Many times thoughts that often pops-up in mind...

What am I doing here?
What do I want?
How about travelling around the world non-stop?
Why that f****** luck never touches me?
Why don't I get the one's that I deserve?
Why do I exist simply when there is something else that I am passionate about?
Why am I always separated or away from the people I like?
Why do I always get pain more than love?

Always...

Searching for something that may not even exist...
Family first...
Trying not to hurt anyone...
Trying to help people around me...
For the ones who care for me a lot...
Thinking, could there be someone who can miss me so much...


Be it a blessing or disguise...I never try to find an answer for all of these. It's one at a time, always.

This self-portrait is especially for Neny who dedicated one to me...It's from my Vintage collection - have a special place for vintage, which I am fond of. Though I had thought of another image, felt this might seem more appropriate for the post. Anyways, that would be coming as the next.

And also I happened to come across a forward through an email and these are what it said about me after a few questions:

"You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never want to loose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings. Life is a journey it's funny and calm for the most part."

I guess its almost right, strangely. But all the above said bits and pieces of sometimes/ manytimes/ always is what that makes it funny. Seriously I am not sure what can one do once all the desires and likes are fulfilled. And of course it can only be a distant theory...

NOTE: This image might show me like an alien and bit different [due to shadows], probably because of the only light source suspended above, which I am dependent on. After all I get bored looking at my same face...Only constraint that I have here in my apartment is the light source [flexiblity that is very essential for photography]. But I have got used to it and like the challenge to use the one that is available.

...pheew, it is a big post, hope it helped in whiling away some time!

Garden of Peace...

NOW - sort of a place that I would walk right into, when I want to be relaxed...it's very close by to me. Fresh air, cool breeze, my favorite muzik...awesome combo!

FEW YEARS BACK - used to travel 3 hrs, to reach my uncle's place from my native, during the college days. My destination used to be a village 2 hrs from the town. Morning a bus takes you in & you can leave only late in the evening by the same bus. Still, used to like the travel.

...place where cobra's cross you atleast once in a day and field snakes take sunbathe on the field side rocks. Small canals, green fields, river, people with the most kindest hearts, school kids with infinite affection, of course tasty fishes, roasted ducks, wine to dine...gone are the days.

But if am in chennai, there were two things that could wake me up early. My cute pomo 'Nemo' & the visuals of a sunrise at the elliots - my favorite place - எல்லாம் நேரம்:

These sort of likings keeps my innate nature intact, till date...n I hope it would last too!

Boundaryless...!

Why would anyone want to neglect me! it's been few years n it simply leaves me wondering, is it that hard to communicate, but then...it all comes without a surprise to an extrovert, who believes that his once very small world, that was too narrow to think of globalization is boundaryless now...!

But now am in the most happening & one of da the most beautiful places in the world. Even then, any act of care is sufficient for one to come into my world. Of course I cannot force a smile on a face…unless mine looks funny to them!

Am not philosophical, or trying to be. These things in my blog are that I have seen so far in my journey & hope the good and da best is yet to come 4 me. Bring more smiley’s around before my departure… mean da eternal one

Try caring 4 others, you will feel da difference…

n by da way my dentist n his receptionist cared for me so much that they gave me a bill for $1000...n left my molars aching...

Inside out!

A close friend of mine was surprised & asked me whether am seeing someone, after reading the recent posts! Because he knew that I am not gonna fall in that. ha ha...I laughed, told him I have grown too old for it & we both know it.

But I hate people who annoy me, especially those who judge me without talking to me. Likes are important to keep one in spirits; doesnt have to be the so called 'L***'. Maybe one has to talk to me to know more about me...till then a-dieus!

I strongly believe time is a medicine that can take-off the intensity of anything that is at the corner of our memories, be it hatred, friendship, ego, etc., As humans, I think we are supposed to carry it with us for a while. But everything fades away. The best thing I give to people who care 4 me is to have them in my memories. The other side of it would be to flush them outta my memories...

For the picture, I was planning to have a session with someone. But then din't wanna trouble my friends & since no one was at the apartment, I decided to take it myself. So I had 12 seconds to set the self - timer n myself up with whatever expression I had. Took a few samples which would definitely help me sometime when friends want their pictures to be taken. Another dim source wasnt ava, else cud have taken off da shadow under my eyes...2AM in the night is not bad after all to try few shots!

...n ya, da profile pic was taken among da few sample shots!

Thirst for freedom...

I admire these beasts...having seen some of them in races, awesome spirit they have...seabiscuit is still one of my favorite movies...though they are well kept and maintained, compared to India, it really feels sad to see them strolling around the streets and on the roads. I often come across such instances in my trips.

Galloping among the valleys and on plains, with freedom is how I would love to see them...don't think they'll differ with my opinion!

Nevertheless they only add beauty to the magnificent architecture and designs of the past...

Communicating thoughts...

While I have been capturing things differently, I should admit the fact that my soul has lost the complete freedom to enjoy the beauty around me, when I am holding a camera.

I guess You know that it can only be felt by those who have been running against time in a location to shoot the best.

But as I go by the rule of life, "You miss some to get some". There is always a loss in a gain.

Cruising Along...

That was a cool race...but he did give some snow splashes and we ended up with it all over us...you can see snow splashing towards us !

Never tried Skiing alone...but took a Snow Limo ride...an option to quench your thirst for skiing...
...where we will be put in a sledge and a well trained skiier, takes us down the hill...awesome experience. It would feel like we are going to flip and fall, but it doesnt happen, at the hands of the experts...

...these series of snaps clicked on my ride...ride was relatively fast n tried to capture with as much stability as possible...

Lone ride...

Skiing, one of my favorite...but does not come easy without few falls...

We were travelling fast and this guy was coming down the slope, so cudnt focus on him...

...had to make the tree, prime focus, but knew frame would come out well as it was a very cool backdrop!

Quite a contrast...

This is not intended to promote anything...color was the one that was visible to me!


I saw this empty tin on a day after snowing...if you bend down to take a closer look, the contrast that we get thro' the naked eye, is juz fabulous...

Scattered all along our journey in life, we oversee so many fabulous things...fortunately for some, they do not realize what they have missed, forever...for those who come to know of it, well...

...I am not so fortunate...

Virtua| Wa||

Am not talking about Dravid here...

There are times when one would believe a constraint exists; some try to break through & some don't...

But actually there isn't any...I know, it ain't that easy to keep ourselves reminded of that fact...
I hope that day comes for me soon...

NOTE: Interesting that Atul Dodiya's 'The Wall' was dedicated to Rahul Dravid and sold at a contemporary and modern art auction for US$115,800, February 23...

Away from misery...

What you said and experienced is very much the truth...

Gautam Buddha...There are ample examples to keep it live and active always...am no exception....

Desire is the cause for misery!

Radiating Minutes...

We see numerous people on the mobile during transit. Some near to their dear one's and some across the globe, radiating the joy on feeling the vibration of the Echo...

I did not realise its importance till I felt it, yes minutes did melt...but that was few years back on a different note...now on hearing my little darling's voice, I wish the days melt too...

The laws of distance constraints are thrown out by voice transmission...

Tunnel Rats...

For those who are familiar with the title, this post has got nothing to do with the Vietnam War [1959-1975] .

...Life just carries us through time, our stop watch starts the moment we are born,
...Thereafter the destination seems to extend forever,
...As the length of the journey seems infinite, there may not be any inclination to rest or to part ways, but for some it is that glitter of hope in the distance, that keeps the spirit up!

Recently I read a phrase somewhere "No one knows when life ends once it starts, nice ending happens only in fairy tales". May be true, but for some there is this undying hope that each one would be a character in that fairy tale...

...Am one among that head count!

The Lighter Side...

Like the dark and lighter side of humans.
These may be some of the perceptions towards me...

I'm dark when I don't smile, but I'm light when I do smile
I'm dark when I speak from my heart, but I'm light When I don't
I'm dark when I am silent, but I'm light when I'm humorous
I'm dark when I would like to be alone, but I'm light When I party
I'm dark when I care for others, but I'm light when I'm selfish

Nevertheless this is the way I'm comfortable with and so be it, who cares!
...I guess chennai's hot Sun has nothing to do!

Dark Side...

There are so many colors but without black, white does not stand out.